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Recovering My Life as Christ's
1st Steps
The initial 60 days were hellish; sexual hunger and lust (the memory of experience) ever present. Some of my 1st Steps included:
1. Accountability via Migiri, an on-line app that assists in blocking porn via pro-active PVN and a partner who receives updates if Migiri suspects pursuit of questionable sites, and;
2. Closing down all social media (Facebook, Instagram, WhatsApp, TIk Tok) that are possible venues of mis-use, and;
3. Using Migiri positively as a tool for learning and utilizing strategies of escape, including professional counseling, and;
4. Stream of Consciousness writings on a daily-weekly basis writing feelings, desires, observations, and burning curves toward "being human", and;
5. Daily silence, devotions or time simply open to listen, feel and learn, and;
6. Restoration of Worship, the iconic rituals of Holy Communion, small safe groups where authenticity is valued, and
7. Confessional moments with those whom you have hurt, betrayed, or failed, and;
8. Sleeping each night with Scripture or Devotional Music, and;
9. Remembering ever "who you are" and "Whose you are" as one created in God's image. (For me that meant beginning the road back to ordination.
I Failed Jack
A 90 Day Primer; ..a Confessional journey looking at our history with addiction and the strategies and beliefs that create sobriety as the outcome..
Entirely Christ's ..Not Yet
My 2nd Primer about restoring humanity (interior congruence, love of life, reverence for God in my life, perhaps yours. Entirely Christ is about loving God 1st, as no other in a surrounding world and interior desires and human developmental needs that ever protest; not yet.
TEMPORARY FILE of "Entirely Christ's.. not Yet"
https://acrobat.adobe.com/id/urn:aaid:sc:US:d6e7cf9f-4406-4521-996a-bf3aa3efa3c9
Migiri (On Line Porn blocker & Support System)
A Place In-Between Broken & Whole
A Space to Explore how to stop, turn and move to restoration. I hope to add some of the educational, reflections, insights I'm using to move into health.
CHAPTER 3 ENTIRE—INSIDE AN EMERGING UNIVERSE OF EXPERIENCE
Ch.3a Forming within Nature Holy-Love
Ch.3b In the Light of Darkness
Ch.3c At Home In Our Own Skin, Part I Ch.
3d At Home In Our Own Skin, Part II Ch.
3e Process of Human Making
of: "Entirely Christ's ..Not Yet"
On 11/15/22 I surrendered my credentials as a minister of Jesus in the Church of the Nazarene, the result of sexual addiction--choosing to betray my lovely wife, my son under whom I served as associate, my family, friends and church. Significantly too, there is a profound dis-regard of the women with whom I pursued casual, sexual touch.
That day was also when, the journey home to family, Church and God began in earnest. I am now 442 + days living in sobriety. The Story of both the sexual addiction and the first 90-180 days of sobriety is told in a published (not yet edited, nor advertised) book called, "I Failed Jack". A Primer for initial recovery the focus is on staying sober; the psychological and spiritual rhythms that support commitment to health. It also asks the philosophical questions that for me define meaning.
The Story up through 260-300 days is told in a second book, as yet unpublished, called "Entirely Christ's ..Not Yet." This primer for persons, who like me are broken, and is centered on dealing with a human heart, divided in motivation, addictive memory, the very nature of our bio-chemical rhythms and the deepest conflicted longing of the soul.
Each of these are confessional in nature, writings and stories from which I hope you will draw insight and strength.
